Day 16, 17 & 18

Right, so I spent the entire weekend movings, which resulted in food just being eaten whenever I was hungry.

Therefore I have absolutely no way I tracking it or knowing how many calories I eat each day.

All I can really say is that is was not good!

Day 15

10.51am

For breakfast I had to Chicken Kababs

Morning Tea a had two iced biscuits

For lunch I am going to have some sushi and honestly it's likely I'll have another piece of my birthday cake.

2.29pm

Moving tomorrow!!!

2.51pm

I did have some of that cake

3.31pm

I am so ready to reach my first milestone. I haven't been able to weight myself yet, when we move this weekend, that is what I plan on doing.

It's been about three or four weeks since I was last on the scale

Final Note:

Can't really recall what I ate that night as I was at a work do with nibbles

Stay True (5)

Knuckle Down

I'm going to Knuckle down next week.

Everything in the house is packed so I went and brought food for Breakfast and Lunch. For dinner tonight I have a work event so who knows what I will be eating.

Come next week, after the move, come Monday I will be able to seriously Knuckle down.

I will be making myself breakfast and lunch. These will be planned so that I am only eating around 1000 before dinner.

I will also only allow myself the food I have brought with me to work for the day. What I have is what I am allowed to eat and I believe as a helping hand, I will leave my wallet in the car??? That way I don't have the money on me so it eliminates the option of going to buy something.

Water and Tea are also going to help. Averaging two to three bottles of water a day and four or so glasses of tea is going to keep my feeling full. It will also ideally stop me from wanting to eat just because I am board.

I feel like the next logical thing is for me to write my list of steps

1. Plan your meals
2. Only eat what you bring
3. Aim for 3 bottles of water a day
4. Aim for 4 cups of tea a day
5. Don't have money on you
6. Get used to saying no

Everyday Food

I may be trying to be crazy healthy, even though I haven't succeeded yet. But that doesn't mean there can't be days where I am allowed to not care.

Birthday

Well that just has to be one of those days!

No matter what I eat I am always going to be mindful of it and it's not like I will keep eating once I am stuffed, but it's my birthday and on my birthday I am allowing myself the luxury of not caring.

This means that I can go out to dinner tonight and get a great meal and desert if I want it. It also means I can have my birthday cake. My birthday only occurs once a year so I don't see why not.

There are also a few other days that I believe this luxury can occur too, Christmas would be one of them.

It's wonderful and brilliant to be mindful of what you are eating. Tracking what you are eating is good too. Being aware of what you are putting in you and making the decision to have something healthier, all of these are excellent. But don't let that control you every second of every day.

I am going to reach my goal weight, have no doubt about that. And to do so I will take control over my eating, I will also work myself to breaking point at the gym, but I will not be consumed with food.

I know what I am doing. I'm having a second piece of my birthday cake and yea it's likely that I'm going to have desert tonight as well (if I can fit it in). I also know how many calories are in what I'm eating and yes too many but that's ok FOR TODAY

It's every other day that I am need to focus on.

I allow myself this luxury too often. Yesterday with Chocolate, last week with another caramel slice and all that crap. These need to be special occasion food not every day food.

I am going to change my everyday food

Day 14

11.17am

It's my birthday today!! For Breakfast I had some English Muffins with Butter and Honey, they came in at 567 calories.

When I got to work my colleagues had a cake for me for my birthday. Eating a piece of the cake added another 320 Calories.

11.19am

I did walk the dog this morning though so at least I've burnt off the cake

3.33pm

It is just one of those days though. On your birthday!

Final Note:

I had a good birthday

Day 13

9.40am

I have a English muffin with two fired eggs for breakfast.

I didn't get up and walk the dog because it was raining a little bit too much for me to want to risk getting sick.

11.33am

I've made some Ham, Cheese and Lettuce Ciabatta buns for lunch. One of my favorite sandwiches.

Final Notes:

There are some days where I am really busy with work that I don't have as much time to be posting here.

Calorie counts for yesterday would have been around 2200. These came in from the caramello chocolate bars I was given. I would have been looking at a lot less calories other wise.

I keep making this task harder, it's time to make it easy on myself

Keeping Track

I just signed up for an online foot and fitness tracking site. Here is the link for it

http://www.webmd.com/

It's looks like it's full of a bunch of information and I enter what I eat, drink and do into to work out my overall calorie intake for each day.

I'll have accurate numbers to put in here

Stay True (4)

Day 12

12.07pm

Already at day 12. I really want to work on making some serious improvements, but over the next week my partner and I don't really have a kitchen as everything is packed. This is likely to result in takeaways. I am going to focus and what and portion size

4.32pm

Today has been a busy day at work. It keeps me occupied and allows me to forget about feel hungry all the time.

4.34pm

I've got weights tonight and then rehearsal, I'm not looking at being home until around 10pm tonight so again, I don't really have time to just eat. Monday is a good day.

4.35pm

So far today I have only eaten 1290 calories, that's got to be my best day so far so yay, and it is going to get better

Final Notes:

Overall I would have eaten around 2200 calories. I added too many on with lollies at rehearsal.

Weekly Exercise (2)

Monday - Weights

Tuesday - Boot Camp

Wednesday - Walked the dog

Thursday - Walked the dog and Boot Camp

Friday - Weights

Saturday - Packing

Sunday - Cleaning and walked the dog

Weekly Measurements and Weight (2)

Right, so the scales and tape measure are all packed. Nothing to report on this week as a result, hopefully next week we will see some great improvements then

Day 10 & 11

I spent the whole weekend packing and cleaning so I really didn't pay much attention to what I actually eat.

All I can really comment on is that I know I could have been eating better food but I still only had 3 meals each day so kept that in balance

Day 9

2.36pm

Would you believe that it has been nearly the whole day and only now do I have time to sit down and write.

This morning was a little bit crazy. My little puppy got out. The side gate to the back yard was open (which I didn't know about) and when I went to find her she was gone.

Thankfully we managed to find her by about 9am, so she was only missing for an hour but still, I really didn't feel good. I was late to work and had nothing organised food wise. Luckily I had one spag bowl left which I brought with me (even though I said yesterday that I'm not allowed it anymore).

Unfortunately that's all I grabbed when I was leaving the house so I stopped at a bakery on the way in. Stupid idea, because me being an emotional eater brought a caramel slice and because of the stress of my morning I tried to justify it. (Idiot) I also got a Chocolate Milk, so there's a bunch of more calories.

At work the boss went out and brought everyone back a drink. That means a hot chocolate for me as I don't drink coffee. More calories that I didn't need to have.

Also my breakfast was hash browns, leftovers from my partners cooking. So let's see where my calories count is at, shall we . . .

1827

Again, that'll probably be ok without dinner, but I cannot keep eating all my calories for the day before dinner.

2.45pm

I do have weights tonight, so that is going to help with my atrocious day.

Final Notes:

Appalling day

Stay True (3)

Day 8

10.10am

A much better morning. I got up, I walked the dog and I made myself breakfast.

I had a smoothie which was the following recipe

• 2 small bananas (180calories)
• 1 pot of yoplait yogurt (92calories)
• 1 teaspoon of honey (21calories)
• 1 cup of milk (103calories)
• 1/2 cup of wholemeal oats (150calories)

Total amount of calories for my breakfast it 546 - honestly I wasn't expecting it to be that high. But still it's a pretty healthy meal and I guess this is easier for my body to burn

10.25am

Honestly I'm a little put off by how many calories where in that smoothie.

Tomorrow morning I'll just have oats.

11.46am

I just did a whole check. My BMI which is 30.76 and my BMR is 1734.8 (I don't really understand what a BMR means because from what I can figure out, I burn a higher amount of calories and I believe that's because of my height)

11.49am

I'm embarrassed to say what I've eaten today, but let me tell you this. I feel like crap!

4.50pm

I am no longer allowing myself to make Spag Bog meals. I love it too much that I eat way too much of them. I can guarantee that my calorie count is going to be a hell of a lot higher today than I am going to feel good about.

4.54pm

I'm at 2546 AAARRRRHHHHHH

I have not failed, I have only learnt. I will be better from now on.

5.01pm

Good news, I walked the dog this morning and I am going to Boot Camp tonight

5.02pm

Bad news, I still won't loose any weight today unless I don't eat dinner

Final Notes:

I didn't eat dinner

Stupid Tempations

Everyone, everywhere is generally working really hard to sell you something. That is why the colours are pretty and the cloths look amazing and the food looks delicious.

Majority of it is all a lie. The reality is what all of these temptations actually do for me in reality.

If I eat whatever I want I cannot buy whatever I want. (Does that make sense?)



If the world really is all about the way things look and that's what I'm focusing a lot of my attention on then so be it. I want to look amazing.

I need to put in the hard work to look amazing and steer away from food temptations.

I need to hold onto an image or something in my mind. I don't know.

Basically I need a hell of a lot more self control when it comes to food. So so so much more. The other side to it is not really having the money to spend now. I got paid two days ago and not I've nearly spent all the money I allow myself for the week. Granted that's only $20 but it puts me at a rather fragile point, money wise.

The thing is, it's not that I don't have back up money, but I really don't want to waste it.

Something expenses come up that you just need money for and that's what my back up money should be sitting there for. Then once it saves up a bit, I could go buy some new clothes (hopefully smaller clothes)

I need to treasure my body.

My body is what's going to get me through to the end of my days (nice clique) but seriously it is. If I don't take care of it, then I'm not going to make it as far as I want too and I'm not going to be able to keep doing things as I want too.



Therefore, these temptations mean nothing to me! I don't care if it looks nice, it's going to make me feel like crap and I don't want that.

Stay True (2)

Smoothie making

• Was water as the base of the Smoothie instead of milk. There are no calories in water. 
• Another option for the base is a tea - green tea
• Limit the smoothie to two servings of fruit only
• Apparently protein powder helps to fill you up
• Add oats
• Add a healthy fat like Flax Seeds
• Use Ice Cubes to thicken it
• Frozen fruits can be used to thicken it too
• Treat a smoothie as a meal - the calories do speak for themselves

Day 7

6.58am

Walk the dog this morning. It's good I did something, but my legs are so saw from bootcamp that I just wasn't in the mood for it today.

8.24am

Lost track of time this morning so ended up buying food on the way to work. Not quite the start to the day that I want. I will do a calorie count so that I know what I eat shortly.

10.44am

For Breakfast I had 597 calories.

12.15pm

I have decided that I need to work on my mornings as I am wasting time doing nothing

3.52pm

So far today I have eaten 1467 Calories. So I am 267 Calories over where I want to be at this stage and also the same as yesterday.

I have dedicated a post to my mornings. Ideally once I sort out what I do with myself in the morning then this number can start to look a lot better.

4.11pm

I need to work on low calorie snacks (100 or less) and sticking to the amount I have allowed myself for each meal

Final Notes:

My total calories for the day was 2128. I'm still not hitting my mark!!!!

Breakfast and My Mornings

I find that in the morning I don't want to get out of bed to make breakfast, let along leave my room. Here are a list of reasons why

• My room is so much warmer than the Kitchen
• I enjoy catching up on my TV shows in the morning
• I don't feel like it

This, I am not allowed to make a habit, so changes that I need to make

• wrap yourself up in a dressing gown or jacket
• put the TV shows on the laptop - portable
• tough love - don't watch TV in the morning
• tough love - breakfast is important, so I don't care if I don't feel like it. Do it

Tomorrow morning I am going to make a healthy breakfast of around 400 Calories. It is going to be high in Fibre. It doesn't have to be the same thing every morning, but it does have to be something.

It can be eggs, but only one fried eggs with two pieces of whole meal toast and put some spinach with that as well.

It can be a bowl of wholemeal oats with a banana or some piece of fruit on the side

It could be turkey bacon (if I like it) with something

It could be a smoothie made up of fruits, honey, oats, a little bit of milk and yogurt.

It is important that I sort out my morning routine.

Now the easy part is that in two weeks I will be in a new house, a warmer house, with a nicer kitchen and really a nicer everything so leaving my room in the morning will be easier and being a new place I will be able to create a routine to follow.

Here is my ideal version of a morning routine

5.30am - wake up and walk the dog
7am - home and shower
7.15am - get dressed
7.30am - make breakfast
8am - leave for work

This is heaps of time so when I move, this will be my morning routine.

Day 6

8.16am

I forgot about my plan to not give myself time to stop somewhere on the way to work to by food. I left home with ample time . . .

This is my aim for the rest of the week. Don't give myself time to stop on the way to work. In fact, if you have too - run a little late, that way you just won't be able to stop.

10.30am

I had fried eggs on toast again this morning for breakfast.

10.33am

Last night I reach a new PB with squats. 80kg. I squatted it 4 times too. Pretty good for my second time doing squats I think :)

12.09pm

They are my curse!! I'm drinking green tea right now and all I can think about is a Caramel Slice.

The only hopes that I have is this, the longer I can go without it the easier it is going to become. I need to put in the hard work today in order to reach my goals tomorrow.

2.07pm

For lunch today I had a vege mince wholemeal pasta bake. This meal is 560 calories (I know this because I make it). I always find myself incredibly full after it but I so prefer the spag bol I made last week.

2.08pm

Probably should focus on the fact that I feel full. That is good!

4.11pm

I have had an Apple this afternoon as a snack.

Calorie count so far is 1429 - not really looking amazing. (As a result of this number I have dedicated a post to Calories)

Final Notes:

Total amount of Calories for the day was around 2100, going to do better tomorrow.

Good Calories

Good Calories are sort of simple to know so I'm just going for a brief run down and my understanding.

Aim for anything brown (wholemeal foods)
Vegetable and fruit should be a first choice
Frozen Vegetable arn't Ideal but they still COUNT
Meats - Chicken, Fish and Lean Red Meat
Any kind of Nut or Bean
Fibre Rich foods
Protein Rich foods
Not Processed

After doing my Nutrition Course I now look for different things in the supermarket when I shop.

• Check the packets, any food with more the 4grams of sugar per 100 grams you should be avoiding (4 grams of sugar equals 1 teaspoon)
• If it comes Wholemeal then by the Wholemeal option
• Fill your freezer up with frozen veges, that way on nights you can't really be bothered a stir fry is an easy and simple option
• Avoid a single snack that is above 200 Calories
• By in bulk to make bulk meals of less that 600 Calories (make a large meal, in my case I make a wholemeal pasta filled with veges, each serving is 560 Calories, separate it into 500g containers and freeze, this way you have lots of meals for lunches or lazy nights) 
• Make sure you note which foods are calorie dense and eat the correct serving amount
• By Fibre Powder and add it to your meals, it helps to fill you up

Where do I/should I eat my Calories?

We has Kiwi's operate quite nicely of at least one big meal a day. We can have a Kiwi Breakfast or a Massive Dinner. This is quite normal for us.

The problem for me is that I need to be aiming for about 500 calories per meal.

If I have fried eggs on toast (with cheese) for breakfast and then a pasta meal for lunch, I've eaten about 1100 to 1200 calories.

Adding a dinner of about 600 to 800 calories and I'm already at 2000. That's the number that I want to stay below, aiming for 1800 (I think I said)

So I believe I need to choose between fired eggs or a pasta meal - not both.

If I have wholemeal oats for breakfast I'm eating 300 calories, plus a pasta meal I'd be at 760 calories. Already that is looking much better.

If I add in my snacks of fruit and popcorn I could be at 1000 - 1200 Calories by dinner and eating somewhere between 1600 to 2000 a day.

Now that's my aim.

Let me spell this out (for my benefit) - Average Eating Day

Breakfast = Wholemeal Oats (300 - 400 Calories)

Lunch = Pre-made meal (up to 600 Calories)

Snacks = Average about 200 Calories of snacks a day

Dinner = whatever we are cooking (I allow up to 800 calories - some days will be much less)

So if I eat the max amount of Calories above I will eat 2000 Calories.

At 2000 I am still loosing weight (so long as their good calories which I will get into later)

Stay True (1)

Image from Pinterest

Day 5

9.55am

So far today I have had fried eggs on toast and a small Banana.

Throughout the weekend I found myself slightly cravings Bananas and I would guess that is because of the magnesium in them.

12.12pm

I have now eaten a f**king Caramel Slice!!!!!

12.30pm

I'm not going to let my set back of eating a caramel slice pull me down. I've made the mistake now I'm moving on. At least weights will Balance my mistake.

A Caramel slice = 350 calories

That's me walking my dog for 1 hour to in order to burn it off, and that's just one slice!

12.33pm

I had a great weekend of eating, I'm going to focus on that.

I only need to eat when my body needs it. Over the weekend I would wait until my body told me it needed something and then have it.

My body knows what it wants I need to listen to it, not my emotions.

1.53pm

I had a Spag Bol for lunch and then a pot of Yoplait yoghurt.

My Calorie count for today so far is 1112

Final Notes:

By my calculations I would have eaten about 2136 Calories yesterday. Now this isn't the end of the world, especially including the fact that I did Weights, but is I hadn't of eaten so much then I would be loosing weight faster and that is what I really want!

Check this out

Just found this site through Pinterest. Have a look http://modelmydiet.com/eywomen

Basically the site allows you to enter in your details so you can see what your weight is currently looking like and what your goal weight can be.

The following pictures show you mine



When I reach my goal weight I will post these next two each other and then we can see how accurate it is.

Caramel Slice

God I love them and the strange thing is I'm not feeling ridiculously guilty right now after having one. That's not good.

But I think it's because I have done since Wednesday last week without having one, so that's good. Still, I'm going to do better.

The other thing that I had going around in my head today was that I prefer to eat my calories than drink them. I considered getting a iced chocolate or a milkshake and then decided that if I'm going to have something I may as well eat it.

That's all fine to say, but the thing is - I've just gone and created more work for myself again!

http://www.rd.com/health/healthy-eating/8-ways-to-train-your-brain-to-hate-junk-food/

From the linked above I just read about breaking the tradition. This strongly relates to my last entry on my first trigger but also on my tradition for eating caramel.

I have made it tradition for me to stop somewhere on my way to work to get something to eat and I have also made it tradition for that something to be something caramel. It is both of these traditions that I need to work on breaking.

If anything, reading the information from the following link is going to be very helpful to try stay away from caramel.

http://healthyeating.sfgate.com/happens-eat-much-caramel-9434.html

Basically though, this is the hard part of what I am doing. I like Caramel, infact I love Caramel and at the end of the day, kicking it out of my diet is on me.

I've had a set back today. I need to continuously work on this. I need to work on not allowing myself to have it because I can get it.

Weekly Exercise (1)

Monday - Weights

Tuesday - Morning Walk and Boot Camp

Wednesday - Morning Walk

Thursday - Morning Walk and Boot Camp

Friday - Weights

Saturday - 3hr Walk

Sunday - 1.5hr Walk

First Trigger

I have slowly made it a habit to stop on the way to work to get something yum. It just happened today without me thinking too much about it.

I would guess this is a trigger of mine. Because I have done it do often, I know that I want to stop on the way. I'm telling myself that I've got time, I can afford to stop for a few minutes. It'll be ok. I won't but all that much.

This I need to avoid as it never works the way I tell myself it will.

To avoid this I almost wonder if I take away the time tell myself I have. It takes me 15 minutes to get to work so I only give myself that time when I leave home.

I'll try this, as it's all I can think of at this stage.

Day 3 & 4

Honestly I possibly just had one of the best weekends of eating that I have had in a long time, though I still made some silly choices.

On Saturday I had some of my favorite biscuits when I went to the Chiropractor because I can only get them in Cambridge.

On Sunday I had a Caramel Frappe from Starbucks when I went to the movies.

Both of these decisions can be avoided but the reason I allowed myself to have them was because I didn't eat much throughout the weekend as I wasn't all that hungry and I walked 3 hours on Saturday and 1.5hours on Sunday.

I've balanced myself out, but I could do better

Weekly Measurements and Weight (1)

I didn't have time this morning to take my weight so I don't have that to enter

Bust: 100cm
Waist: 85cm
Hips: 114cm
Thigh: 64cm

Day 2

9.51am

Not a good morning. Comfort eating is a problem for me. I really need to sort this things out. I had some bad news this morning and as a result I brought two cupcakes on the way to work and eat both of them.

Oh and my breakfast was two hash browns. This is a really bad start to the morning!!!

10.25am

According to my Calorie counter and without acurating knowing the ingrediants of the cupcakes I eat between 440  and 760 calories with those two cupcakes alone.

The Hash browns also equaled 306 Calories.

Not a good start to the day and I can notice that in my mood.

1.17pm

It's been a busy day at work and I had a meeting with my solicitor right on lunch time. Also I still haven't sorted out the drama of this morning. Not really good.

I had the Spag Bol again for lunch, but I had a little bit more of it than I did yesterday because I was still hungry. At a guess I could have eaten close to 800 or 900 calories for lunch. Really not the numbers I need in order to be able to loose weight.

1.19pm

I've also had a small banana today.

So far I've eaten 1840 Calories. Which isn't as bad as I though, but I know as a fact that I won't be below 2000 Calories today and that's not good.

1.49pm

I shouldn't be eating more the 1800 calories a day regardless of what exercise I am doing.
http://www.calculator.net/calorie-calculator.html

2.10pm

I've been doing a lot of research on emotional eating today and just put a post up. The conclusion I came to is for me to acknowledge when I have cravings for food here, in the hopes that the acknowledgement will help the cravings pass.

Final Notes:

It wasn't the worst day but could have been better without that emotional eating

Comfort Eating

I'm a comfort eater!!! I have been for a long time. I find that eating nice food when I'm down is all that I want.

Unfortunately I creates a vicious cycle (as I'm sure it does for most people). I eat because I'm low, eating the crap food makes me feel low and then I want something yum again to try and feel better. So I guess that means I need something else to use as a pick me up.

The advantage to it being yum food is that it's quick and easy. I can walk or drive somewhere, get it and eat it within 10 minutes.

Does this mean that I need something that's instant as a replacement?

In the article I read (this link http://www.helpguide.org/articles/diet-weight-loss/emotional-eating.htm) it talks about finding other ways to feeding your feelings. And refers to emotional eating as emotional hunger.

Here are a few suggestions copied directly from the link above

• If you’re depressed or lonely, call someone who always makes you feel better, play with your dog or cat, or look at a favorite photo or cherished memento.
• If you’re anxious, expend your nervous energy by dancing to your favorite song, squeezing a stress ball, or taking a brisk walk.
• If you’re exhausted, treat yourself with a hot cup of tea, take a bath, light some scented candles, or wrap yourself in a warm blanket.
• If you’re bored, read a good book, watch a comedy show, explore the outdoors, or turn to an activity you enjoy (woodworking, playing the guitar, shooting hoops, scrapbooking, etc.).

The next list of tips are from this link http://www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-lifestyle/weight-loss/in-depth/weight-loss/art-20047342?pg=2

• Keep a food diary. Write down what you eat, how much you eat, when you eat, how you're feeling when you eat and how hungry you are. Over time, you might see patterns that reveal the connection between mood and food.
• Tame your stress. If stress contributes to your emotional eating, try a stress management technique, such as yoga, meditation or deep breathing.
• Have a hunger reality check. Is your hunger physical or emotional? If you ate just a few hours ago and don't have a rumbling stomach, you're probably not hungry. Give the craving a time to pass.
• Get support. You're more likely to give in to emotional eating if you lack a good support network. Lean on family and friends or consider joining a support group.
• Fight boredom. Instead of snacking when you're not hungry, distract yourself and substitute a healthier behavior. Take a walk, watch a movie, play with your cat, listen to music, read, surf the Internet or call a friend.
• Take away temptation. Don't keep hard-to-resist comfort foods in your home. And if you feel angry or blue, postpone your trip to the grocery store until you have your emotions in check.
• Don't deprive yourself. When trying to lose weight, you might limit calories too much, eat the same foods repeatedly and banish treats. This may just serve to increase your food cravings, especially in response to emotions. Eat satisfying amounts of healthier foods, enjoy an occasional treat, and get plenty of variety to help curb cravings.
• Snack healthy. If you feel the urge to eat between meals, choose a low-fat, low-calorie snack, such as fresh fruit, vegetables with low-fat dip or unbuttered popcorn. Or try low-fat, lower calorie versions of your favorite foods to see if they satisfy your craving.
• Learn from setbacks. If you have an episode of emotional eating, forgive yourself and start fresh the next day. Try to learn from the experience and make a plan for how you can prevent it in the future. Focus on the positive changes you're making in your eating habits and give yourself credit for making changes that'll lead to better health.

So I believe it'll be a matter of working out what I can do when things hit me.

This is going to be a process for me as I've fallen into using food as my helping hand, my support network.

For me, the first thing I am going to try is using this. I will write down when I have cravings (just as I did yesterday) and hopefully by acknowledging that I have an emotional hunger, I will be able to let it pass and not eat

Day 1

8.31am

I went for a walk in the morning with my dog.

Already noticing the fact that I am craving something yum, but I managed to make it into work without stopping to get something. I have stocked up on my magnesium pills so I can take one through the day while I am working. Hopefully this will help.

10.19am

The cravings have slightly gone away. Staying distracted is working best I think.

10.58am

I see so many post all over facebook of people's before and after photos. I'm so ready for mine to look amazing too.

I love my job but at the same time, I kind of hate being stuck at a desk all day. I would be nice to be able to move around a bit more, be a bit more physical throughout the day. But again, food is really where I need to make these changes.

For breakfast I had leftovers from dinner. Spaghetti Bol, a nw recipe. The bol is 50% mince and the rest in capsicum, mushrooms and spinach and the past is wholemeal. The only unhealthy things about it is the parmesan cheese and the sauce (from a can). This is also going to be my lunch.

11.22am

Some rose chocolates where brought in and I eat a few, I kept the wrappers of what I eat, 4! Not so good. We where all eating them though so I just did without thinking about it.

1.28pm

I've had lunch and now I have cravings to walk down to the cafe and buy something.

3.36pm

as snacks today I have had those chocolates I mentioned above, a small Banana, 3 small Mandarin's and a cup of sweet as popcorn. All in all I have eaten just under 800 calories of snacks so far today. That is not good and it's up so high because of Roses chocolates.

I should be aiming for around 300 to 400 calories in snacks on the average day

4.48pm

Nearly home time and then I've got Bootcamp at 6 tonight. I'm at a safe bet that I will burn off more calories today than I have eaten, but my snake count is still too high

Final Notes

For Dinner I have a roast meal, not the best but OK to have after boot camp.

Eating Sweets at Work

How do I say no to yummy food that's has been brought into work and all my work mates are eating it?

I have no idea.

The thing is this is sort of a regular occurrence. There are sometimes lollies in the Jar or the occasional cake or slice or someone has brought me a hot chocolate.

I take it because I don't want to feel like I'm being rude, but also because I don't want to make a big deal about trying to loose weight and am unhappy with my size.

The food is delicious as expected but after I've had it I feel like crap. It's something else that I now have to burn off, off what I already have to burn away. I'm creating more work for myself in order for me to reach my goal.

I guess I haven't thought of looking at it this way.

I am creating more work for myself. Why the hell do I want to be doing that. Loosing weight is definitely hard enough as it is, there is no point in my making it harder and that is exactly what I just did and have been doing all year.

Aren't I a DUMMY

Anyways I got off track . . . How do I say no at Work??

For now I legitimately want to go Cold Turkey so I've come up with a sort of step by step plan

1 - don't go into the back room where the yummy are
2 - when you know you have to go back, drink the rest of your water bottle before going
3 - when you are offered the yummy either say no
4 - if you can't say no then accept it, wrap it up and go put it in your bag so you can give it to your partner later
5 - if having it in your bag is too much of a temptation then don't wrap it, just throw it straight in the bin
6 - if it's a special occasion, a birthday or celebration then allow yourself 1 serving and that's it, after that revert back to the first 5 steps

And for later down the track (after the wedding)

7 - 1 serving is OK every now and then. Only one serving and only every now and then (like once a week)

Lastly the final thing I want to keep in mind is that maybe my partner and I are going our for dinner and might be getting desert, if you only allow yourself one a week then you might want to save it for that ?!?! (still this is after the wedding)

Magnesium and Chocolate Cravings

http://www.activationproducts.com/marine-phytoplankton-supplement/chocolate-cravings-you-might-be-deficient-in-magnesium/

The link above gives you plenty of information about why our bodies can have chocolate cravings.

While I was studying Nutrition I learn't that my body could be craving chocolate because I am low in Magnesium. The other advantage to magnesium is it can help you muscles relax. So I went and brought a container of Magnesium Pills to take. I have noticed while I have been taking them that I no longer crave chocolate like I'm used too, but I still want it.

I want the yum taste, and this is the mental side. This is where kicking my bad eating habit is going to be a challenge. I need to battle myself and make sure I keep myself in line. I can very well still want it but I need to ensure that I am not going to let myself have it.

How I'm going to document my Progress

Each day I will enter a post which will be published the next day. As I write the post it will be tracked by time. This means that I will record the time with what I am writing and write down at different stages throughout the day. (I may not always get posts in on the weekends because I sometimes don't have access to a computer to do this)

Weekly I will weigh in and check my measurements. The measurements I will take are my Chest, Hips, Butt and Thighs.

Also weekly I will let you know what my exercise activity was for that week just so I can monitor what I am doing physically.

Monthly I will have a photo taken to keep track of my visual progress.

Each time a reach a milestone I will let you know how the reward for that milestone went, ie: show you pictures of my shopping, or tattoo, or spray tan and what not.

When I falter or notice that I have made a poor decision I will dedicate a post to it where I try to pin point what the trigger was, what I could have done to prevent, what I will attempt next time to prevent it and how I felt after woods.

Lastly I will also post interesting finds that I come across about weight loss. These could be tips, links to articles I found useful, observations and all that.

So by starting this tomorrow I am making Thursday my first day. I will still start tomorrow but on Monday I will treat it like I have just finished a week and put in my weekly progress (going from Thursday to Sunday), this is so that my week can be Monday to Sunday from then on.

Exercise Plan

Before Photo

Milestones and Goal Weight

From the research I have just done, I've hit my plateau weight. Check out this link on weight loss milestones http://weightloss.allwomenstalk.com/weight-loss-milestones and here is another link on Plateau weight loss http://www.builtlean.com/2012/05/22/weight-loss-plateau/

Alright, so based on the fact that I currently weight around the 90 to 93kg mark, I am going to set myself a series of milestone weights that will lead to my Goal Weight.

The milestones are mini goals which will become accomplishments for me to celebrate as I am embarking on this quest. Therefore I need to work two things out. First: what am I going to use to celebrate and second: what are my milestone weights.

First: well it's very easy for me to say that food is going to be my rewards to celebrate but allowing myself to do that is taking a step backwards. That is way I have another idea. There are several things that I have always wanted, a spray tan, my next tattoo, comfortable working high heels, an eye lash tint etc. These are going to become my rewards.

Right first task done, and onto the second.

Second: what are these milestone weights. Based on what I currently weigh my first milestone weight is going to be to break the 90s (my plateau weight) so it's set at 89kg. After that I wonder if 1.5kg intervals are a good distance in between milestones.

Cool so I've set my rewards and I've set my milestones weights. Now all I need is my goal. Well, I know it so here it is.



If I weight 62.4kgs then my BMI will read healthy, it'll be smack in the middle of healthy, and trust me, I'm ready to see that weight, all I've got to do now if live like a am that weight.

If you want to know your BMI here's the site I use https://www.kiwicover.co.nz/your-health/bmi/calculator

So let's put this all together:

When it's broken down it does look do-a-ble, I look forward to crossing them off as I go

The Positive side of Quitting

This post is all about visual aids. Images that are going to be some of my key affirmations to never give up.

The Harmful Effects of my Addiction

Alright so the first step in my planning stage is to list all the harmful effect of this addiction. First, here's a visual aid

1: slowly killing my organs.

I'm set on this. Recently I've just received a Diploma in Nutrition and Weight loss. I did this because I wanted to know more.What it really taught me was that I haven't been and still am not treating my body the way it needs to. Here's another clique for you, treat your body like you would a car. Put the right stuff in it and it'll go the distance, put the wrong stuff in it and it could make it but will then need to go to the mechanic afterwords and put nothing in it, it's not going to go anywhere.

2: health

I guess this strongly relates to my first point, but it deserve to be emphasized again. In my Diploma we had a challenge to spend a week eating healthy and document the results. They are so obvious. You have more energy, you are less tired, your brain seems to operate for longer and after a while of doing it, you actually feel less hungry.

3: constantly spending money on junk food

This is a big one for me as my partner and I have just brought a house. Now money is incredibly slim and if I keep spending my money on food then I'm going to have no money to spend on anything else. I want a fat wallet and a skinny body.

4: no self esteem

Putting all the wrong things in me makes me feel horrible. I know what I am eating and yet I'm still doing it. Then I get stuck feeling like crap and all the remorse because I know what I did but still let myself do it. It ruins the confidence that I have in myself.

5: hating the way I look

All this junk that I'm putting in my body doesn't have me liking the way I look. I hate me reflection and I especially hate it when I see photos of myself.

6: not getting weight loss results

As I mentioned in my introduction. I've stopped loosing weight now. I may be exercising regularly but I'm not loosing anything. I'm still around 90 to 93kg and this is the same weight I was at the start of last year. My BMI says I'm obese and honestly my eating is telling me the same.

Time to change (what a depressing list to write)

Introduction to my Weight Loss

I have an addiction and I really ready to make a change.

My addiction is Caramel. The thing that I'm eating changes, I could be eating 1 or 2 caramel slices, a small tub of caramel ice cream or 4 cadbury caramello bars a day.

So not only am I ready to make a change but I seriously need to make a change and we've all got to start somewhere, I have decided to start here.

First things first, check this out:
 

According to this nifty calculator that I found online, if I stop eating 5 caramel slices a week then in five weeks I could be looking at having lost 41.06kg. Obviously that is ridiculous, I'm not going to loose that but I am going to loose something!

And that's really what I want, to loose something.

Now, everyone needs motivation so I've got it. I have two reasons to sort my eating out. The first and most important is that I have got to do it for health. What I am doing to myself is not OK. I'm slowly killing my body with bad food which I really need to change. I can give myself a healthier lifestyle and that's important. In fact, that's more than important, it's essential.

Second is that I am getting Married in November. As a result I've already been working hard on loosing weight. Here are my statistics:

Before Christmas 2015 I weighed 101.9kg
On the 8th of February 2016 I weighed 97.8kg, Bust 103cm, Waist 90cm and Hips 120cm
On the 15th of June 2016 I weighted 90.6kg, Bust 100cm, Wasit 85cm and Hips 112cm

These are improvements yet, but here's the big thing
I brought my wedding dress. The most amazing dress that I could find, but I don't fit it yet. I'm close to fitting it and I know that in 4 months I am going to be able to fit this thing! But there you have it, my second piece of motivation.

Now my statistics look good but I'm a little stuck now. For the past few months my weight has been between 90 and 93kg, IT'S NOT GOING DOWN, so yea, it's true. Exercise can only get you so far.

Food, that's what is going to get me to my goal.

After-all (wait for the clique) it's 10% what you do and 90% what you eat. I believe that.

So the next few days are going to be all about making a plan, setting my goals, writing them here and then on the 14th of July and I going to cut out this crap food and document my progress and changes as I go.

Wish me luck :)